What Everyone Wants….???

Alright Now,  It’s been a while since I’ve decided to rant/rave online and I think  it’s high time I start.   I know some of you people seemed to enjoy my non-sense.     I bounce back and forth between writings and always promise that I’ll write something and then I suddenly lose interest.   I wish I could keep my momentum and write something everyday, But I seem to lack the passion or enthusiasm I used to…. I’m trying to find it again, but it seems to be a losing battle.

Anyway….. Off to start my small topic of Discussion…. People, Love and all that junk we deal with on a regular basis.    I have been around this planet for almost exactly 29 years and I’ve seen alot of things, alot of things change… People come and go.  I have spent a good amount of my time pondering why people do alot of things they do and why they act the way they do and generally I seem to get it on at least a small scale…. One of the greatest mysteries however is Love……. particularly how it happens and well, How to find it.

I’ve been through a great number of relationships in my lifetime , some were fantastic, some were so-so and some were just downright bad…. Sometimes it was my fault, sometimes it was my fault and sometimes it just wasn’t meant to be….. and I’m thankful for ever single one, the good or the bad   because quite frankly they all helped me out in becoming who i am, or who I’m trying to be… Love is a strange thing… and I’ll struggle to understand it for the rest of my life.    I don’t know if it’s supposed to make any sense.. but I guess that’s what makes it so damn powerful.

I’ve loved alot of people over my 29 years, but when I look back, I’m not sure why…. I’ve been cheated and wronged, I’ve been embarrassed and stabbed in the back….I’ve been totally destroyed…. but yet, I keep trying it over and over again… hoping to get it right… and more often than not, it seems to be like …. Well … A party is a perfect metaphor…. When you go to a party with a few friends, you have a blast, you have a few too many to drink… you have the time of your life…. you wake up in the morning and your hanging over the toilet and eating Tylenol like candy…. but… next weekend, you do it all over again….  we say we’ll “never do it again” but we do… again and again…

Love is kind of like that… Except we put alot more effort into it and when it’s over it hurts alot more… and no amount of Tylenol is going to make it go away….. We all want love and we all (to some extent) fight to find it….. but damn when it’s over you wish you hadn’t bothered…. Relationships are a funny beast…. we all want one… but they scare the hell out of us at the same time.

Remember when it was just going up and asking a girl to dance at a high school dance?? or asking her to go see a movie??  I remember that, for some reason it was so much easier back then, and we didn’t really have so much to worry about… Holding hands and sharing popcorn was my biggest concern.        Now the pressure of being an adult has added huge amounts of strain to the idea and ideals of a relationship and at my age… it seems harder and harder to find.
But… Alas,     in the end….. We all want one thing… to know theres someone out there who we can spend our life with, someone we would die for…. someone we can’t live without…..     Its like the Pot of Gold on the otherside of the rainbow….. I just can’t find the Rainbow……………….

Christmas is Coming… What’s it to you??? The Holiday of all Holidays….To you??

So.. It’s December 11/ 2008, 2:41 as I currently sit here typing … and It’s getting closer, I can feel it…. the lights, the glitter the tinsel and the snow….the abundance of red and green and white… the candy canes… It’s everywhere….and i felt, that having this blog or outlet to rant and not updating in a while… I would have the perfect opportunity to talk about whats on every Christians mind… Christmas….Now, I had the idea to write about this exact subject today at work because of something a co-worker joked about at work today while out on my 15 minute smoke-break.   She was complaining about the weather and someone said we needed some snow, and that it wasn’t Christmas without snow, and she smartly replied, “It’s the birth of Christ, where he was born they don’t have snow”… so I thought it was funny and being as simple minded as I am, I decided I would write about the topic of Christmas, in my usual unstructured and grammatically incorrect way.

I’m sure most of you are scrambling around trying to find that last minute gift for that special someone, or just picking up a few little things for the person who should be on your list and you just plain forget, or well.. your like me and you haven’t even started…. but inevitably you’ll be standing in long lineups fighting to get out of there… pushing your way through hoards of people to get what your looking for… and it’s just part of your Christmas routine, I am just like you all, I haven’t even started yet, and I have two special occasions in a span of less than 10 days… the lady friend has a birthday coming just before Christmas, so I have to buy two extra special gifts… and although I have a bit of an Idea as to what I should get her… I have to make it good… and hope I pull through …. and if not.. well.. my bad.     I’d tell you about it, but well.. she may be reading, so I’ll have to keep that hush hush… can’t spoil the surprise, and to any of you in a similar situation as I, Good Luck.

But I wanted to talk about something else… What does Christmas mean to you??? What do you remember about Christmas, whats Your meaning of Christmas???

Christmas is alot of things to me, and my definition and outlook on that has changed alot over the years, my family are not with me, and live in another part of the country, and my daughter lives with her mother, so my Xmas isn’t exactly picture perfect, aside from the fact I’ll be spending the 24th, 25th and 26th at work, answering phone calls and dealing with other peoples problems… So I can’t say I have alot to look forward to this Holiday season and probably am not as stoked as some for the holidays, but I’ll do what I can to make the best of it, most likely spending some time with my daughter and seeing her gifts and playing with her, and spending some time with the girlfriend and her daughter, and most likely all the latter will be brief due to my working schedule… but again, I’ll make due.. I hope…..

But I can say with certainty that I have fond memory’s of Christmas and what it means or meant to me…. I have a pretty big family and we all generally lived on the same street.. so there were alot of holiday gatherings and lots of fun times… but mostly I remember the times I had with my Grandparents, my moms mother and father… they were like my second parents, and my Grandfather was like a god to me.and my Grandmother was an Angel.. he was the greatest man I’ll ever know..and she was the strongest women that ever existed… and that’s fact…in my eyes, I remember every minute I spent with them… and Christmas especially, sitting down in the living room with him watching Hockey or the annual Christmas Daddies telethon which is a big thing where I’m from to raise money for the needy… we would sit and chat and talk while my Mom and Grandmother would decorate and chat it up with whoever dropped by.. All of the family would drop in and out briefly but I didn’t want to be anywhere else… and this was long before Christmas was even around the corner…. once Christmas time came, it was the same, we would open a few gifts at our house and then it was off to “Ma and Papa’s” which was what we affectionately called our grandparents… and we would sit there while they opened there gifts and stayed there for the remainder of the night eating and chatting, and even tho it wasn’t much to some people…It was big to me,  I got to see most of my family, aunts , uncles, cousins and everything in between, all at the center of my universe, my grandparents little house… and… well, it’s years later… and time has passed… but when I think of Christmas… I don’t think about gifts, or music, or snow or Santa… I think of them… Johnny and Kathleen, Ma and Papa, my Grandparents… they were my Christmas… and even tho they have passed on… Christmas is there Holiday… and I miss them dearly… I wish just once I could go back to that overdecorated little house and sit on the edge of that couch with my Grandfather as he clicked away at the remote and my Grandma bickered and joked with the women of the family out at the kitchen table drinking there super strong tea..lol… I miss you both Dearly Ma and Papa…. Merry Christmas…..

So that was my sentimental little journey into the past…. but well, the moral of the story is this…. Christmas isn’t about Gifts, or Snow, or Decorations… it’s about what you make of it, and who you spend it with… never take the little things for granted, because when they’re gone.. you’ll want them back forever…. So wherever you are this Christmas… make the most of it… and spend as much time as you can with your loved ones…. It’ll be worth it in the end….so to you all… Have a Merry Christmas… or Happy Holidays… You only live once…. Live Once…..

Proof that Love, Dating and Relationships is what you internet junkies crave most…

This site ( www.infiniteodds.wordpress.com ) has been going on and off for over 3 years and in that span of time I have written about Politics, Science, Wrestling, Music, Holiday events, Video games, Blogging in general, did one Audio blog, ranted about my personal life and many other random topics… and in looking through all the data, and hits… I’ve realized what all you people are interested in most… Love, Dating and Relationships..

These topics have generated more general feedback and site visits than anything else I have written about..and I can’t say I’m really sure why, I’m not an expert in the field by any means.. however you people seem interested in what I have to say on this general topic… So … to test my theory, I’m going to start writing a weekly article on these subjects.. and see how well that works for me.. stay tuned.. sometime between Sunday and Monday my next article will be posted..

Relationships…love and other silly things….

Often times in ones life… a person thinks about alot of things, money, work, family, love, loss… and often times the things people question never seem to make any sense, and well.. as most things in life we spend most of our lives looking for meaning or trying to answer questions we’ll never understand, and one of those big questions is “what is love?” or “Why Settle?”…

You see, I’m not sure I can answer either of these questions, But I am damn sure I can rant and rave quite a bit on the subject in question (nevermind my bad spelling and horrible sentence structure and overuse of punctuation) We as people spend an eternety trying to find that perfect match, or perfect one night stand, whatever your flavor may be… but all in all, the thing most of us want is to find love, someone you can share the rest of your life and be happy with, with no questions asked… Now, some will find it, and some won’t…. well, if you don’t, then I feel bad for you. Men and Woman will always find attraction in certain types of people, wether we focus on looks or personality we all have our types, we all have our hangups and we all have our turn-offs… but in general.. we all want the same thing.

Love… whatever your definition of that is… but most generally, finding someone we can trust and cherish for an eternity… or whatever other sappy thing you can put here… now I’ll admit, a few times I thought I found it… but I realized I was doing something else.. I was just convincing myself what I had was right… just to be in a comfortable state.. a sort of self satisfaction…. some of us , we try to “force” love or happiness.. but all we get is this false barrier of what will inevitably implode and leave us alone, looking for our next security blanket.. or just jumping from meaningless relationship to the next… I also admit to doing the same thing… but, luckily, with some growing up and soul searching… I have kicked that habit, found someone that fit my mold as far as who i truly wanted to be with, someone who was what I was looking for… and I’m content with that…very much so in fact… but enough about me…

For all you One Night Standers or Unfaithful morons, It’s time to grow up and onward, you’ll never find true happiness unless you can honestly define what or who will make you happy… and find it… him, or her…. because a good girl/guy will have your full attention, and you’ll never need to look elsewhere… cheating and the “bachelor” life in general shows a sort of insecurity…it shows your scared of being hurt or just can’t understand yourself well enough to find what your looking for… If you feel the need to cheat… go into porno or something… you’ll have better luck there.

So… to get to the point of this ridiculous rant… I really think, that we all need to settle, and a good relationship will ultimateley complete us as people… You need to truly look for what your looking for, and find it… down to every detail…. now if this means being picky FINE…. but put looks last on your list… picking for looks alone is like picking a pretty car without working parts….

Now… I mean, think it through… are you insecure, are you afraid of cheaters, fine… that happens, if thats the case, don’t date a bar star… don’t want to date an alcoholic, then don’t pick up at a bar… are you afraid of a girl/guy that will cheat on you or mess around on the internet? well, don’t search for girls or guys on the internet… lol, if they found you there, they’ll probably just as easily find someone else there too…. So before you look for that perfect mate… remember what your looking for… be picky… and find it…. Trust me… it makes sense… and in the end, you’ll be much happier…

Do I believe that theres someone out there for everybody? Yes!… Do I believe everyone can find that person? Yes again….. Why Settle?? because if you can find that perfect person, the person you can’t live without…. you’d be an idiot to let them go… and someone like that may never come along again…. so if you found what your looking for already……. hold on… and NEVER let go………..

**this concludes my mad unstructured late night rant…. stay tuned for more nonsense soon to come…. Johnny D Mackenzie