What Everyone Wants….???

Alright Now,  It’s been a while since I’ve decided to rant/rave online and I think  it’s high time I start.   I know some of you people seemed to enjoy my non-sense.     I bounce back and forth between writings and always promise that I’ll write something and then I suddenly lose interest.   I wish I could keep my momentum and write something everyday, But I seem to lack the passion or enthusiasm I used to…. I’m trying to find it again, but it seems to be a losing battle.

Anyway….. Off to start my small topic of Discussion…. People, Love and all that junk we deal with on a regular basis.    I have been around this planet for almost exactly 29 years and I’ve seen alot of things, alot of things change… People come and go.  I have spent a good amount of my time pondering why people do alot of things they do and why they act the way they do and generally I seem to get it on at least a small scale…. One of the greatest mysteries however is Love……. particularly how it happens and well, How to find it.

I’ve been through a great number of relationships in my lifetime , some were fantastic, some were so-so and some were just downright bad…. Sometimes it was my fault, sometimes it was my fault and sometimes it just wasn’t meant to be….. and I’m thankful for ever single one, the good or the bad   because quite frankly they all helped me out in becoming who i am, or who I’m trying to be… Love is a strange thing… and I’ll struggle to understand it for the rest of my life.    I don’t know if it’s supposed to make any sense.. but I guess that’s what makes it so damn powerful.

I’ve loved alot of people over my 29 years, but when I look back, I’m not sure why…. I’ve been cheated and wronged, I’ve been embarrassed and stabbed in the back….I’ve been totally destroyed…. but yet, I keep trying it over and over again… hoping to get it right… and more often than not, it seems to be like …. Well … A party is a perfect metaphor…. When you go to a party with a few friends, you have a blast, you have a few too many to drink… you have the time of your life…. you wake up in the morning and your hanging over the toilet and eating Tylenol like candy…. but… next weekend, you do it all over again….  we say we’ll “never do it again” but we do… again and again…

Love is kind of like that… Except we put alot more effort into it and when it’s over it hurts alot more… and no amount of Tylenol is going to make it go away….. We all want love and we all (to some extent) fight to find it….. but damn when it’s over you wish you hadn’t bothered…. Relationships are a funny beast…. we all want one… but they scare the hell out of us at the same time.

Remember when it was just going up and asking a girl to dance at a high school dance?? or asking her to go see a movie??  I remember that, for some reason it was so much easier back then, and we didn’t really have so much to worry about… Holding hands and sharing popcorn was my biggest concern.        Now the pressure of being an adult has added huge amounts of strain to the idea and ideals of a relationship and at my age… it seems harder and harder to find.
But… Alas,     in the end….. We all want one thing… to know theres someone out there who we can spend our life with, someone we would die for…. someone we can’t live without…..     Its like the Pot of Gold on the otherside of the rainbow….. I just can’t find the Rainbow……………….

Twitter is Addictive…. and I don’t know why….

So… In the last little while I have spent ALOT of time on the internet… and between Facebook and Twitter I just can’t stop…. I’m not sure why… There’s something addictive about following other peoples lives….    Originally it all started for me on www.friendster.com and then came www.hi5.com , two social networks that were very popular in the beginning… and I spent alot of tim on the both of them…. but in time, I got bored… and gave up on them… and along came www.myspace.com , however at the time of it’s big boom I was not a big fan of the the internet,  mostly for alot of strange reasons… most of which I have discussed in previous blogs.

Now… forward a few years and it came…. one of the biggest social network sites I’ve ever been a part of… www.facebook.com , it’s absoluteley amazing how much time people spend online just creeping about, viewing pictures and posts, writing notes and adding ridiculous apps (games , quizzes, music) anything at all….. it’s absoluteley astonishing… I spend a good 2 hours or more just lurking about the site… its bad… I feel like an Internet Stalker. However, Facebook as made that cool…. so if you haven’t jumped on the wagon… DO IT….!!

and now… the point of my hugeley pointless, grammaticly incorrect rant. (I don’t care if my punctuation is bad… Your still reading.    TWITTER… lol..    I joined Twitter a few months ago but never used it… then I seen a post by a Celebrity that interested me… and I logged back in (after several failed attempts at password retrieval).  Its quite possibly the most addictive thing on the internet… and it’s growing each day… you can follow everyone, from Borat to Miley Cyrus and Her Dad, all the way to some hugeley popular Television stars (Jimmy Fallon).

So if you haven’t joine… I demand you do… you’ll never look back… I haven’t….

oh and follow me…. www.twitter.com/infiniteodds

I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind… ok.. maybe not… but I did go for a walk….

So This is a Pic I took on my walk... The Park in Glace Bay, Nova Scotia

Ok, So it’s been a long time since I did any real writing and quite honestly I’m a bit drained as far as Creativity is concerned so it may take a little while before my little rants and whatnot are up to speed, so please bare with me.     I been working alot and got a new position, it’s a little better than what I was doing albeit a bit more stressful bet I can deal, it’s cool. The Tele-Services industry or customer service industry is something I am very accustomed to… So I know the ropes and I’ll get by, none of this is really very interesting so I’ll continue on.

Relationships?? Well… I ranted and raved several times a while back about this subject.. the good and the bad, well mine turned out the latter… I mean, don’t get me wrong .. I was happy with it… but well, lets just chalk it up to being me and not being who I should have been… or not trying hard enough. I’m not sure which… and I’m not sure I’ll ever really know…. The girl was fantastic and did no wrong, she’ll move on and hopefully find someone better. I loved her and wish her luck in all her future endeavors or whatever lol… …. life goes on……    as far as the current dating scene goes, well… I’m not sure about it… or if it’ll turn out in my favor or not,   the bar scene just doesn’t work for me and well I don’t get out much of anywhere to really even try…. I guess I need to work on socializing a bit more (and not on facebook/twitter/myspace). But as the old saying goes… there’s plenty of fish in the sea..or something.

I recently started a week long vacation and well quite honestly… it’s been a crappy @$$ vacation, I’ve got a good fill of Video games and have been playing the PS3 Exclusive “Infamous” to death, I absolutely love it.. and between that and getting  my rear-end handed to me on Resistance 2, I would say that’s how the majority of my vacation has been spent …. that and well I decided to get back into a good workout regime.. which of course.. is a gradual thing… and eventually maybe my workouts will last more than a half hour.. and I won’t stop once I start to break a sweat haha…

So in closing… this little rant was mostly filler.. just to show the readers who seem to still be dropping in that I am in fact still here and I will be around alot more… so.. yeah…. within the next couple of days or whatever i should have some decent reading material.. but until then…..Peace!

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my PS3 Gamertag is      MrSalvation

Here I am… not gone…Slightly forgotten….

Well it’s been a while since I gave any real reading material.. because I’ve been very busy with alot recently… so to keep you up to speed until i write a lengthy article… heres whats new… a breakup… new job position…bought a ps3….new friends….ummmm yeah… So I’ll fill you in on most of that and more within the next day or so… keep in touch… and i’m on twitter… hehe.. I gave in. back at y’all soon.

The Rants, The Unstructured… the Wrestler?? well… Yeah… InfiniteOdds.com returning…..

I read through alot of my old posts and deleted the ones that had no real merit….  so I left the content that people still seem to be reading.    Now, with a fresh start and perspective on the content… I have a good idea on the direction i wish to take this site… so within the next week or so, there will be some new and interesting content with which for you all to read… or whatever…

I need to be better than me…. (I feel like milk, I want to be Ice Cream)

So I really have no Idea what to write about anymore, I try, but I seem to lack motivation.  I greatly enjoy the art of writing and expression but it seems my job sucks the life out of me. I spend hours a day letting customers belittle me and rant and rave.. I spend so much time worrying about everyone elses little issues.. I sometimes forget about myself completeley…. but Such is life, I guess I just need new outlets… or new inspiration, and I suppose I’ll have to look for it….If anyone has any suggestions I would greatly appreciate it.

I know what people like to read… and I know how to write it, aside from my bad spelling and grammar oh and Structure.. I like to think my reading is interesting and I know some of you are still reading.. and thats fantastic… thank you!

The last few days I’ve had a bit of a crisis as such… a weird sense of being less of a person, like nothing I do matters, and seem to be paranoid about every little aspect of my life, be that job security, my health, relationships and everything else. To be quite honest , I have no idea why.   My life as of late, aside from the pretentious and sometimes stressful job   I can honestly say things are pretty good for me and I’m very happy all around.  I dunno if it’s my age, or my declining health… or if I just need something to banter about.  I like the money I make from my Job, my health is my own issue and I love my girlfriend..I think I’m just crazy.

Now, If your reading this.. and you must be, your probably wondering about the Milk / Ice Cream  title… well , I’ll explain.

Milk is good for you, everybody likes it.. and for the most part, we need it… but it’s just milk…Now, Ice Cream on the other hand well that’s completeley different, it’s made of the same basic elements but it’s more interesting…It tastes better, it’s sweeter, it’s more Diverse.  People don’t go crazy for milk… people go crazy for Ice Cream… and in that sense.. the last little while I see myself as Milk, Trying to be Ice Cream..LoL

Ok… it’s late… and I don’t make sense anymore… So.. Thank you for reading… I’ll be back in a few days with something that makes more sense.. and more structured… Thank you and Good Night..or Good Day!

Relationships…love and other silly things….

Often times in ones life… a person thinks about alot of things, money, work, family, love, loss… and often times the things people question never seem to make any sense, and well.. as most things in life we spend most of our lives looking for meaning or trying to answer questions we’ll never understand, and one of those big questions is “what is love?” or “Why Settle?”…

You see, I’m not sure I can answer either of these questions, But I am damn sure I can rant and rave quite a bit on the subject in question (nevermind my bad spelling and horrible sentence structure and overuse of punctuation) We as people spend an eternety trying to find that perfect match, or perfect one night stand, whatever your flavor may be… but all in all, the thing most of us want is to find love, someone you can share the rest of your life and be happy with, with no questions asked… Now, some will find it, and some won’t…. well, if you don’t, then I feel bad for you. Men and Woman will always find attraction in certain types of people, wether we focus on looks or personality we all have our types, we all have our hangups and we all have our turn-offs… but in general.. we all want the same thing.

Love… whatever your definition of that is… but most generally, finding someone we can trust and cherish for an eternity… or whatever other sappy thing you can put here… now I’ll admit, a few times I thought I found it… but I realized I was doing something else.. I was just convincing myself what I had was right… just to be in a comfortable state.. a sort of self satisfaction…. some of us , we try to “force” love or happiness.. but all we get is this false barrier of what will inevitably implode and leave us alone, looking for our next security blanket.. or just jumping from meaningless relationship to the next… I also admit to doing the same thing… but, luckily, with some growing up and soul searching… I have kicked that habit, found someone that fit my mold as far as who i truly wanted to be with, someone who was what I was looking for… and I’m content with that…very much so in fact… but enough about me…

For all you One Night Standers or Unfaithful morons, It’s time to grow up and onward, you’ll never find true happiness unless you can honestly define what or who will make you happy… and find it… him, or her…. because a good girl/guy will have your full attention, and you’ll never need to look elsewhere… cheating and the “bachelor” life in general shows a sort of insecurity…it shows your scared of being hurt or just can’t understand yourself well enough to find what your looking for… If you feel the need to cheat… go into porno or something… you’ll have better luck there.

So… to get to the point of this ridiculous rant… I really think, that we all need to settle, and a good relationship will ultimateley complete us as people… You need to truly look for what your looking for, and find it… down to every detail…. now if this means being picky FINE…. but put looks last on your list… picking for looks alone is like picking a pretty car without working parts….

Now… I mean, think it through… are you insecure, are you afraid of cheaters, fine… that happens, if thats the case, don’t date a bar star… don’t want to date an alcoholic, then don’t pick up at a bar… are you afraid of a girl/guy that will cheat on you or mess around on the internet? well, don’t search for girls or guys on the internet… lol, if they found you there, they’ll probably just as easily find someone else there too…. So before you look for that perfect mate… remember what your looking for… be picky… and find it…. Trust me… it makes sense… and in the end, you’ll be much happier…

Do I believe that theres someone out there for everybody? Yes!… Do I believe everyone can find that person? Yes again….. Why Settle?? because if you can find that perfect person, the person you can’t live without…. you’d be an idiot to let them go… and someone like that may never come along again…. so if you found what your looking for already……. hold on… and NEVER let go………..

**this concludes my mad unstructured late night rant…. stay tuned for more nonsense soon to come…. Johnny D Mackenzie