What Everyone Wants….???

Alright Now,  It’s been a while since I’ve decided to rant/rave online and I think  it’s high time I start.   I know some of you people seemed to enjoy my non-sense.     I bounce back and forth between writings and always promise that I’ll write something and then I suddenly lose interest.   I wish I could keep my momentum and write something everyday, But I seem to lack the passion or enthusiasm I used to…. I’m trying to find it again, but it seems to be a losing battle.

Anyway….. Off to start my small topic of Discussion…. People, Love and all that junk we deal with on a regular basis.    I have been around this planet for almost exactly 29 years and I’ve seen alot of things, alot of things change… People come and go.  I have spent a good amount of my time pondering why people do alot of things they do and why they act the way they do and generally I seem to get it on at least a small scale…. One of the greatest mysteries however is Love……. particularly how it happens and well, How to find it.

I’ve been through a great number of relationships in my lifetime , some were fantastic, some were so-so and some were just downright bad…. Sometimes it was my fault, sometimes it was my fault and sometimes it just wasn’t meant to be….. and I’m thankful for ever single one, the good or the bad   because quite frankly they all helped me out in becoming who i am, or who I’m trying to be… Love is a strange thing… and I’ll struggle to understand it for the rest of my life.    I don’t know if it’s supposed to make any sense.. but I guess that’s what makes it so damn powerful.

I’ve loved alot of people over my 29 years, but when I look back, I’m not sure why…. I’ve been cheated and wronged, I’ve been embarrassed and stabbed in the back….I’ve been totally destroyed…. but yet, I keep trying it over and over again… hoping to get it right… and more often than not, it seems to be like …. Well … A party is a perfect metaphor…. When you go to a party with a few friends, you have a blast, you have a few too many to drink… you have the time of your life…. you wake up in the morning and your hanging over the toilet and eating Tylenol like candy…. but… next weekend, you do it all over again….  we say we’ll “never do it again” but we do… again and again…

Love is kind of like that… Except we put alot more effort into it and when it’s over it hurts alot more… and no amount of Tylenol is going to make it go away….. We all want love and we all (to some extent) fight to find it….. but damn when it’s over you wish you hadn’t bothered…. Relationships are a funny beast…. we all want one… but they scare the hell out of us at the same time.

Remember when it was just going up and asking a girl to dance at a high school dance?? or asking her to go see a movie??  I remember that, for some reason it was so much easier back then, and we didn’t really have so much to worry about… Holding hands and sharing popcorn was my biggest concern.        Now the pressure of being an adult has added huge amounts of strain to the idea and ideals of a relationship and at my age… it seems harder and harder to find.
But… Alas,     in the end….. We all want one thing… to know theres someone out there who we can spend our life with, someone we would die for…. someone we can’t live without…..     Its like the Pot of Gold on the otherside of the rainbow….. I just can’t find the Rainbow……………….

Twitter is Addictive…. and I don’t know why….

So… In the last little while I have spent ALOT of time on the internet… and between Facebook and Twitter I just can’t stop…. I’m not sure why… There’s something addictive about following other peoples lives….    Originally it all started for me on www.friendster.com and then came www.hi5.com , two social networks that were very popular in the beginning… and I spent alot of tim on the both of them…. but in time, I got bored… and gave up on them… and along came www.myspace.com , however at the time of it’s big boom I was not a big fan of the the internet,  mostly for alot of strange reasons… most of which I have discussed in previous blogs.

Now… forward a few years and it came…. one of the biggest social network sites I’ve ever been a part of… www.facebook.com , it’s absoluteley amazing how much time people spend online just creeping about, viewing pictures and posts, writing notes and adding ridiculous apps (games , quizzes, music) anything at all….. it’s absoluteley astonishing… I spend a good 2 hours or more just lurking about the site… its bad… I feel like an Internet Stalker. However, Facebook as made that cool…. so if you haven’t jumped on the wagon… DO IT….!!

and now… the point of my hugeley pointless, grammaticly incorrect rant. (I don’t care if my punctuation is bad… Your still reading.    TWITTER… lol..    I joined Twitter a few months ago but never used it… then I seen a post by a Celebrity that interested me… and I logged back in (after several failed attempts at password retrieval).  Its quite possibly the most addictive thing on the internet… and it’s growing each day… you can follow everyone, from Borat to Miley Cyrus and Her Dad, all the way to some hugeley popular Television stars (Jimmy Fallon).

So if you haven’t joine… I demand you do… you’ll never look back… I haven’t….

oh and follow me…. www.twitter.com/infiniteodds

I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind… ok.. maybe not… but I did go for a walk….

So This is a Pic I took on my walk... The Park in Glace Bay, Nova Scotia

Ok, So it’s been a long time since I did any real writing and quite honestly I’m a bit drained as far as Creativity is concerned so it may take a little while before my little rants and whatnot are up to speed, so please bare with me.     I been working alot and got a new position, it’s a little better than what I was doing albeit a bit more stressful bet I can deal, it’s cool. The Tele-Services industry or customer service industry is something I am very accustomed to… So I know the ropes and I’ll get by, none of this is really very interesting so I’ll continue on.

Relationships?? Well… I ranted and raved several times a while back about this subject.. the good and the bad, well mine turned out the latter… I mean, don’t get me wrong .. I was happy with it… but well, lets just chalk it up to being me and not being who I should have been… or not trying hard enough. I’m not sure which… and I’m not sure I’ll ever really know…. The girl was fantastic and did no wrong, she’ll move on and hopefully find someone better. I loved her and wish her luck in all her future endeavors or whatever lol… …. life goes on……    as far as the current dating scene goes, well… I’m not sure about it… or if it’ll turn out in my favor or not,   the bar scene just doesn’t work for me and well I don’t get out much of anywhere to really even try…. I guess I need to work on socializing a bit more (and not on facebook/twitter/myspace). But as the old saying goes… there’s plenty of fish in the sea..or something.

I recently started a week long vacation and well quite honestly… it’s been a crappy @$$ vacation, I’ve got a good fill of Video games and have been playing the PS3 Exclusive “Infamous” to death, I absolutely love it.. and between that and getting  my rear-end handed to me on Resistance 2, I would say that’s how the majority of my vacation has been spent …. that and well I decided to get back into a good workout regime.. which of course.. is a gradual thing… and eventually maybe my workouts will last more than a half hour.. and I won’t stop once I start to break a sweat haha…

So in closing… this little rant was mostly filler.. just to show the readers who seem to still be dropping in that I am in fact still here and I will be around alot more… so.. yeah…. within the next couple of days or whatever i should have some decent reading material.. but until then…..Peace!

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Pro Wrestling… My not so secret vice…

I remember it so vividly, it was around 1985, I was running around the house like a crazed child in need of downers, my mother was doing her usual cleaning, but of course I was in the way….. So my mother, frustrated with my ability to always get in the way, she picked me up and plopped me down in a chair in front of our small television set w/ “rabbit ears” filled with three fantastic local channels.  What was about to happen was going to change my life forever and I had no idea.   She turned on the Television and told me not to move until she was finished her cleaning…so there i sat… and there he was, a monster of a man dressed in Red and Yellow… tearing is shirt apart with ease to a packed house while the sounds of “Real American” blasted through my speakers….. I had found my hero… So I sat there, glued to the television….. here I am, over 24 years later…. Still glued to the Television…..

Wrestling has always been something that fascinated me, I know it’s not real  (but i was devestated when i found out) , but it absolutely enthralls me into an almost stupor when it’s on.  Wrestling is Action, Sports, Entertainment and Fantasy all rolled into one. I have surrounded myself with it for as long as I can remember, and anyone around me knows this.  It’s the greatest art form I know and it is very rarely given its respect.  These men and woman bust there a$$es of to entertain the crowds and tell fantastic stories in the mix…. So much goes through my mind when I think about wrestling… So many pivotol moments.

I remember the Rockers… who I wanted so badly to be, I remember Andre… A giant of a man who I thought was invincible… I remember Rick Rude painting Jake the Snakes Wife on his tights and how badly I wanted Jake to DDT him through the mat and cover him with Damien.   But as a child… one thing changed the face of wrestling for me forever…. Hulk Hogan VS. The Ultimate Warrior…. I idolized both with all of my being and for the first time in my life…. I did not know who to root for….. In the end… I decided it didn’t matter….either way, my hero would win…. and from that day forward, as just a small child… I decided I wanted to be a Pro Wrestler.

For the next few years as a child.. I dreamed about being a wrestler, emulating what they did with my friends… eventually finishing them off with a legdrop on an old mattress. And the years passed…. There was HBK’s boyhood dream, The Montreal Screwjob, The NWO, The Rock, Steve Austin, DX….. So much all of it being a part of my life… there was always one constant, while everything in my life drifted away… and changed, Wrestling was always there….

Now.. step forward… in the early years of 2000, I was offered a chance to wrestle, to be trained by a guy they called “The Dice” (now known as “LumberJack” Johnson… he was a local guy who had said he was trained by someone in ontario) , But that didn’t matter to me… I seen a ring in front of me and seen the chance to live out the dream I had since my early years.  Now I had a small background in Amateur Wrestling from my high school days so I figured I was off to a good start…

I started my training, learning to bump and protect myself in the ring… for a few weeks… unknown at this point in time I was hardly ring ready.. or maybe not even properly trained… But that did not turn me off, I wrestled almost weekly , as a fan favorite in a small “semi” pro wrestling group and loved every minuted of it…. I had not felt like this  in my entire life… the first day I walked through those curtains.. to “MY” music… to a crowd … I felt like crying…But I was there… I walked out there… and I was terrible… they laughed… made fun of me… I had no idea what I was doing….. but I learned… and kept doing it…. a barely trained pencil necked geek.    As time went on, I learned from my mistakes… and learned what the crowd liked…. I became an Entertainer…  in that small little Hockey Ring every weekend… I wasn’t John Mackenzie… I was a wrestler………and they liked me… they really liked me..lol

That ensued for about 2 years…. I even went on to travel a bit for another wrestling promotion in another part of the province… I had learned from my mistakes… and considered myself as being an equal to the guys around me…. I had a rough start… but it wasn’t until my last match… In the North Sydney Forum against a good friend of mine. I felt like I finally knew what I was doing…. and that… was the last day of my wrestling career….

That was four years ago… “The Dice” is now a fully trained pro wrestler and excels at what he does and I respect the hell out of him…… and I work as a tech support agent …. …. I feel the need for a repeat… to become legitimate … I know I’m grown up… and I should be out of that by now…. But even tho that was a long time ago…. It still eats at me….and I say this… again…. 28 years old…. Sitting in the living room waiting for a TNA Wrestling PPV….My name is John Mackenzie and  I WANT TO BE A WRESTLER……and I always will….

The Rants, The Unstructured… the Wrestler?? well… Yeah… InfiniteOdds.com returning…..

I read through alot of my old posts and deleted the ones that had no real merit….  so I left the content that people still seem to be reading.    Now, with a fresh start and perspective on the content… I have a good idea on the direction i wish to take this site… so within the next week or so, there will be some new and interesting content with which for you all to read… or whatever…

I need to be better than me…. (I feel like milk, I want to be Ice Cream)

So I really have no Idea what to write about anymore, I try, but I seem to lack motivation.  I greatly enjoy the art of writing and expression but it seems my job sucks the life out of me. I spend hours a day letting customers belittle me and rant and rave.. I spend so much time worrying about everyone elses little issues.. I sometimes forget about myself completeley…. but Such is life, I guess I just need new outlets… or new inspiration, and I suppose I’ll have to look for it….If anyone has any suggestions I would greatly appreciate it.

I know what people like to read… and I know how to write it, aside from my bad spelling and grammar oh and Structure.. I like to think my reading is interesting and I know some of you are still reading.. and thats fantastic… thank you!

The last few days I’ve had a bit of a crisis as such… a weird sense of being less of a person, like nothing I do matters, and seem to be paranoid about every little aspect of my life, be that job security, my health, relationships and everything else. To be quite honest , I have no idea why.   My life as of late, aside from the pretentious and sometimes stressful job   I can honestly say things are pretty good for me and I’m very happy all around.  I dunno if it’s my age, or my declining health… or if I just need something to banter about.  I like the money I make from my Job, my health is my own issue and I love my girlfriend..I think I’m just crazy.

Now, If your reading this.. and you must be, your probably wondering about the Milk / Ice Cream  title… well , I’ll explain.

Milk is good for you, everybody likes it.. and for the most part, we need it… but it’s just milk…Now, Ice Cream on the other hand well that’s completeley different, it’s made of the same basic elements but it’s more interesting…It tastes better, it’s sweeter, it’s more Diverse.  People don’t go crazy for milk… people go crazy for Ice Cream… and in that sense.. the last little while I see myself as Milk, Trying to be Ice Cream..LoL

Ok… it’s late… and I don’t make sense anymore… So.. Thank you for reading… I’ll be back in a few days with something that makes more sense.. and more structured… Thank you and Good Night..or Good Day!

Christmas is Coming… What’s it to you??? The Holiday of all Holidays….To you??

So.. It’s December 11/ 2008, 2:41 as I currently sit here typing … and It’s getting closer, I can feel it…. the lights, the glitter the tinsel and the snow….the abundance of red and green and white… the candy canes… It’s everywhere….and i felt, that having this blog or outlet to rant and not updating in a while… I would have the perfect opportunity to talk about whats on every Christians mind… Christmas….Now, I had the idea to write about this exact subject today at work because of something a co-worker joked about at work today while out on my 15 minute smoke-break.   She was complaining about the weather and someone said we needed some snow, and that it wasn’t Christmas without snow, and she smartly replied, “It’s the birth of Christ, where he was born they don’t have snow”… so I thought it was funny and being as simple minded as I am, I decided I would write about the topic of Christmas, in my usual unstructured and grammatically incorrect way.

I’m sure most of you are scrambling around trying to find that last minute gift for that special someone, or just picking up a few little things for the person who should be on your list and you just plain forget, or well.. your like me and you haven’t even started…. but inevitably you’ll be standing in long lineups fighting to get out of there… pushing your way through hoards of people to get what your looking for… and it’s just part of your Christmas routine, I am just like you all, I haven’t even started yet, and I have two special occasions in a span of less than 10 days… the lady friend has a birthday coming just before Christmas, so I have to buy two extra special gifts… and although I have a bit of an Idea as to what I should get her… I have to make it good… and hope I pull through …. and if not.. well.. my bad.     I’d tell you about it, but well.. she may be reading, so I’ll have to keep that hush hush… can’t spoil the surprise, and to any of you in a similar situation as I, Good Luck.

But I wanted to talk about something else… What does Christmas mean to you??? What do you remember about Christmas, whats Your meaning of Christmas???

Christmas is alot of things to me, and my definition and outlook on that has changed alot over the years, my family are not with me, and live in another part of the country, and my daughter lives with her mother, so my Xmas isn’t exactly picture perfect, aside from the fact I’ll be spending the 24th, 25th and 26th at work, answering phone calls and dealing with other peoples problems… So I can’t say I have alot to look forward to this Holiday season and probably am not as stoked as some for the holidays, but I’ll do what I can to make the best of it, most likely spending some time with my daughter and seeing her gifts and playing with her, and spending some time with the girlfriend and her daughter, and most likely all the latter will be brief due to my working schedule… but again, I’ll make due.. I hope…..

But I can say with certainty that I have fond memory’s of Christmas and what it means or meant to me…. I have a pretty big family and we all generally lived on the same street.. so there were alot of holiday gatherings and lots of fun times… but mostly I remember the times I had with my Grandparents, my moms mother and father… they were like my second parents, and my Grandfather was like a god to me.and my Grandmother was an Angel.. he was the greatest man I’ll ever know..and she was the strongest women that ever existed… and that’s fact…in my eyes, I remember every minute I spent with them… and Christmas especially, sitting down in the living room with him watching Hockey or the annual Christmas Daddies telethon which is a big thing where I’m from to raise money for the needy… we would sit and chat and talk while my Mom and Grandmother would decorate and chat it up with whoever dropped by.. All of the family would drop in and out briefly but I didn’t want to be anywhere else… and this was long before Christmas was even around the corner…. once Christmas time came, it was the same, we would open a few gifts at our house and then it was off to “Ma and Papa’s” which was what we affectionately called our grandparents… and we would sit there while they opened there gifts and stayed there for the remainder of the night eating and chatting, and even tho it wasn’t much to some people…It was big to me,  I got to see most of my family, aunts , uncles, cousins and everything in between, all at the center of my universe, my grandparents little house… and… well, it’s years later… and time has passed… but when I think of Christmas… I don’t think about gifts, or music, or snow or Santa… I think of them… Johnny and Kathleen, Ma and Papa, my Grandparents… they were my Christmas… and even tho they have passed on… Christmas is there Holiday… and I miss them dearly… I wish just once I could go back to that overdecorated little house and sit on the edge of that couch with my Grandfather as he clicked away at the remote and my Grandma bickered and joked with the women of the family out at the kitchen table drinking there super strong tea..lol… I miss you both Dearly Ma and Papa…. Merry Christmas…..

So that was my sentimental little journey into the past…. but well, the moral of the story is this…. Christmas isn’t about Gifts, or Snow, or Decorations… it’s about what you make of it, and who you spend it with… never take the little things for granted, because when they’re gone.. you’ll want them back forever…. So wherever you are this Christmas… make the most of it… and spend as much time as you can with your loved ones…. It’ll be worth it in the end….so to you all… Have a Merry Christmas… or Happy Holidays… You only live once…. Live Once…..

Proof that Love, Dating and Relationships is what you internet junkies crave most…

This site ( www.infiniteodds.wordpress.com ) has been going on and off for over 3 years and in that span of time I have written about Politics, Science, Wrestling, Music, Holiday events, Video games, Blogging in general, did one Audio blog, ranted about my personal life and many other random topics… and in looking through all the data, and hits… I’ve realized what all you people are interested in most… Love, Dating and Relationships..

These topics have generated more general feedback and site visits than anything else I have written about..and I can’t say I’m really sure why, I’m not an expert in the field by any means.. however you people seem interested in what I have to say on this general topic… So … to test my theory, I’m going to start writing a weekly article on these subjects.. and see how well that works for me.. stay tuned.. sometime between Sunday and Monday my next article will be posted..

CAN U DECIPHER THE GE3K CODE??

Ok, So I was browsing the internet today and I found something that was pretty fun, it’s called the geek code… and well, I’m not going to tell you anything about it… I’m just going to post an example of it, and for a little bit of fun… I wanna see who can crack it… it actually contains a few personal details about myself…I’m mainly doing this because well.. I couldn’t think of anything else to write today.. so here’s the code.. leave your comments.. search google, who will be the first to crack it.. ???

—-BEGIN GEEK CODE BLOCK—

G!/d/s:/!a/C+++/W++
/PS/t+/tv++/G/e-/h-/

—–END GEEK CODE BLOCK—-

Ok, so have fun.. .

OBAMA WINS!!!! Congratulations America!!!

If I were an American I would be proud… Hell, I’m not an American and I’m still proud, this marks one of the major milestones in History… the first Black President… and well… aside from that… it breaks barriers that have been there since the dawn of time.. hot off the heels of my last post.. this is very fitting.

But it isn’t about Race.. it is about the Man, President Obama will do good things for the U.S.A and I strongly believe he has the potential to go down as one of the greatest presidents of all time… but, what do I know, I’m just a Canadian…..         Well.. Congrats Obama, and Congratulations U.S.A!!!